another incomplete post, from December.

it's sad reading blogs, i forgot how sad it is. to demonstrate, a list of what i read tonight! (if you are excluded, it's because i forgot your blog address already, or you changed it and won't tell me. HANNAH. THAT MEANS YOU.)

bro db's:
His latest post was pictures about an mcube meeting that i didn't attend. conversations that i didn't take part in, people i didn't get to watch or observe, people i didn't get to smile at or laugh with, food i didn't get to eat (THE INJUSTICE!) etc etc. sure i could always arrange to see them again, but it wouldnt be the same, i wouldn't be able to have that night. yes yes this is all very narcissistic, but these are my friends we're talking about! but i've been so busy, i say. what a horrible excuse.

tym's:
just posts about what's she's been doing, little things like haircuts, nothing life changing (unless the hairdresser botched it and you look like harry potter for the next few months). i don't know why i read tym's blog, i hardly know her. i think i read her blog because i hardly know her, and i wish i knew her better. this sounds slightly stalker-ish but it's true. i'm very bad at mingling, please take note. especially with people i admire.

on the subject of people i admire, i read one of my old lit essays that i tend to hoard. some of the comments were as thus:
"What the hell is this?" "Rubbish." "I don't know what you intend to do with this, but it's not working very well." "This whole paragraph is irritating."

oh mr. harris, i love you too!

tzeqi's:
she hasnt updated, and previous entries have all been about art. i miss art! i wish i was doing art! but i'm not. and i havent talked to her in ages. and i'm afraid when we go out again it will be very awkward, as things tend to get when you fall out of each others lives.