i suddenly feel apart from the people i thought i was always closest to. its not that i suddenly dislike them, its just that things are now shifting. old friends are coming into focus and recent ones are kind of hazy. Not a total haze, but the kind of blur you only notice after looking at a photo for a while. Something is not right, Watson.
how do we fix things? in The Lovely Bones, the main character called her brother (or someone, i dont remember exactly) a "fixer of broken things". how do you become that? where do you even start? for instance if you want to do something (anything!) about poverty, where on earth do you start? i mean that literally, because there is poverty everywhere on this planet. how do you help everyone? and if you choose to help one group, what about the other group? who helps them? what card is dealt that makes it fair for them to be neglected?
teaching comes to a close on tuesday. i think i have already found another job, though its not confirmed yet, but whoever ventures near me this week or next will know soon enough. all i have to say about these things is that the Lord has seen.
yay, i am typing this entry in the staffroom with my hair just undone, because it has been particularly onerous recently - everything i do with it makes my head hurt. the only thing i seem to be allowed to do is let it down, and that for only a few minutes while i stay perfectly still and cannot go out into the humidity and sun. otherwise it explodes. my hair is very temperamental. it does not like being washed, or combed or brushed. it likes being touched, but not too much or it explodes. basically, if you do anything it doesnt like, it explodes. che-ba-boom.
anyway, two teachers came and told me how much they liked it, the colour, the wavyness etc and that, of course, is always encouraging. girls in church, you know what i mean. you're all beautiful (:
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